{"id":97,"date":"2007-06-10T13:59:37","date_gmt":"2007-06-10T19:59:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/2007\/06\/10\/my-very-late-post-on-patience-boston\/"},"modified":"2007-06-10T13:59:37","modified_gmt":"2007-06-10T19:59:37","slug":"my-very-late-post-on-patience-boston","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/my-very-late-post-on-patience-boston\/","title":{"rendered":"My Very Late Post on Patience Boston"},"content":{"rendered":"<p class=\"MsoNormal\"><strong><u>Convictions<\/u><\/strong>&#8211; Although \u00e2\u20ac\u0153convictions\u00e2\u20ac\u009d usually suggests an absolute and unwavering value, for Patience it seems to mean a value she wishes she were convinced of.<span>\u00c2\u00a0 <\/span>She talks about abandoning her \u00e2\u20ac\u0153convictions\u00e2\u20ac\u009d about God and returning to drinking and sin. <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>Like Esther Rogers, she becomes convinced she is saved, but unlike Esther Rogers, she changes her mind many times.<span>\u00c2\u00a0 <\/span>These wavering convictions seem like more normal human behavior than Rogers\u00e2\u20ac\u2122 unflinching conviction that she is saved and special in the eyes of God.<span>\u00c2\u00a0 <\/span><\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\"><strong><u>Fixation<\/u><\/strong>&#8211; Patience is obsessed with truth and lying.<span>\u00c2\u00a0 <\/span>She seems to think telling a lie about killing her child is worse than killing her child, saying of her lie <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>\u00e2\u20ac\u0153This I <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>thought was a greater sin than if I had indeed murdered my child.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d<span>\u00c2\u00a0 <\/span>She also says \u00e2\u20ac\u0153Having solemnly sworn that I would be the death of the child, I was so far from repenting of it, that I thought I was obliged to fulfill it.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>Instead of stopping the drunken lies about killing her child, she wants people to take those lies seriously. <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>It\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s a strange twist on the commonly held value of keeping one\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s word.<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\">\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\"><strong><u>Wicked<\/u><\/strong>&#8211; A lot of the process of redemption in these narratives is acknowledging that one led a wicked life and repenting. <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>Wicked seems to pertain more to the overall lifestyles of the criminals than to the crimes themselves. <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>Patience describes her first reaction upon being put in jail: <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>\u00e2\u20ac\u0153I was in a distressed condition, not so much for my wicked heart or wicked life; for I saw little of either:<span>\u00c2\u00a0 <\/span>as for fear of death and Hell, not being fit to go into another world.\u00e2\u20ac\u009d <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>This is before her murder of her child; the wickedness she talks about is her drinking, lying, and not praying. <span>\u00c2\u00a0<\/span>The puritans seemed to endorse a sorrow for offending God rather than a fear of God because one should not be concerned for one\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s own state, even though they stressed the idea of hell and made people fear for their eternal lives.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Convictions&#8211; Although \u00e2\u20ac\u0153convictions\u00e2\u20ac\u009d usually suggests an absolute and unwavering value, for Patience it seems to mean a value she wishes she were convinced of.\u00c2\u00a0 She talks about abandoning her \u00e2\u20ac\u0153convictions\u00e2\u20ac\u009d about God and returning to drinking and sin. \u00c2\u00a0Like Esther &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/my-very-late-post-on-patience-boston\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":53,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[180,182,181],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-97","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-convictions","category-fixation","category-wicked"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/97","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/53"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=97"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/97\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=97"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=97"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blogs.elsweb.org\/disciplinepunish\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=97"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}